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|Thu, 06-10-2010 - 3:09pm|
Hi! I'm Laura (39.5) and dh (41). We have 4 children. Gavin is 2 1/2 and then we have 1 yr old triplets, Anna, Liam and Owen. We had Gavin naturally, although my husband did have vericocele surgery 3 months before. We got pregnant 3 months after Gavin was born, but miscarried at 6 weeks. We tried naturally for 6 months and then did 3 IUIs, which failed. We then did ivf and implanted 2 good ones and 2 duds (doc's words) I was pregnant with 4 until 11 weeks when ones miscarried (I hate the use of vanished. I think it diminishes the baby's passing).
When I was pregnant with the triplets I said I never wanted to be pregnant again. It was a rough pregnancy. At 21 weeks, I was told to abort the pregnancy, because I'd never have living babies. I was contracting and was 99% effaced. I was on all the drugs possible and even double the normal dose of one (indomethacin) to keep me pregnant. Well, I delivered at 34w and my trips are now a year and completely healthy. So...the second after they were born I wanted another. I cannot say that my husband does.
Well, the day before the trips birthday, I found out I was pregnant. My husband was initially pissed. He came around...he was shocked. We thought he wouldn't be able to get me pregnant. Plus, we only had sex once the previous month. Well...I miscarried a week later. Unfortunately the miscarriage wasn't too surprising...very disappointing and heartbreaking.
I know I should be happy with the 4 little ones I have. I love them with all my heart, but I feel an overwhelming desire for another. I also want to have a "normal" pregnancy...get to enjoy it and lavish one newborn with hugs and kisses.
So...should I wait to try until the trips are 2 or not chance it and start trying now?
Thank you for allowing me to read about your journeys, although they are way too many Susan, Susies, etc!!