Re-introduction and scared...please help

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Re-introduction and scared...please help
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Sun, 09-19-2010 - 6:56am

Hello everyone, it's me, Deni.

I haven't been on this board in ages. I stopped charting altogether 3 years ago when I got the news that my DH's sperm/motility was less that zilch, adding my advanced age of 39 as a contributing factor and we were hopeless of every having a child of our own.

I live overseas and Doctor Etiquette is a little less than desired here. Our EN told us flat out: "Forget it! You'll never have children - adopt!". The look on my husband's face was enough to break my heart.

Even though I stopped charting, I was so in tuned with my body that I knew when I was fertile instinctively and despite the harsh words, I kept at it, unbeknownst to my husband. He thought he was just getting lucky when actually I was taking sperm. I have always been 28 days on the nose and I have always consistently ovulated on cd 15 without fail.

Having a high pressured job took it's toll on me and my hormones were out of whack for the longest time. I'm pretty sure I had Estrogen imbalance and even though I quit my job last year, and took a much needed rest, it still didn't balance out.

Not a fan of doctors or medicine, I decided to get my hormone back in check by doing a veggie/fruit fast but that was inconvenient so I did the Master Cleanse Detox and I will swear by that until the day I die. I never felt so much better in my life. My body was cleansed of all those toxins (processed/chemically balanced foods). I flushed everything out and then after that I went on The Diet Solution and changed my entire way of eating by taking in natural foods, adding more vegetables and fruits and I continued to take Cayenne Capsules along with my Multi-vitamins. Also, I had my DH take Cayenne Capsules, Multi-Vitamins, and Omega-3.

Despite being given the death sentence, I still kept at it, secretly which brings me to my dilemma. I haven't had the chance to buy a pregnancy test but my period was due September 15 and I am now 4 days late.

The day after my period was due, I felt nauseous, and two days after my period was due, I had the weirdest discomfort 3 inches below my belly button. It felt like a huge gas bubble that wouldn't go away - it wasn't painful, just irritating. My nipples are somewhat sensitive but aside from being days late, a few instances of nausea, very mild cramping in my lower stomach, and the fact that my BBT is still high (normally I'm 92 and it's been 97.8), I don't feel pregnant - if I am pregnant. I don't have to urinate all the time, I'm not necessarily fatigued, I don't have any sensitivity to smells at all.

I'm going to try to get up the nerve to buy a pregnancy test tomorrow but I'm soooo frightened that it will be negative. I know your cycle changes after 40, even if I have been consistent, but I just don't want it to be anything else that's serious.

Since my body temp is still high, I'm hoping that it means I'm pregnant but this is maddening.

Has anyone who has had a child remember feeling a pain I described right below the belly button - a nagging pressure-like gas bubble feeling?

Anyhow, that's my story.

Good luck and baby dust to everyone!

Deni

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Sat, 09-25-2010 - 12:03pm

Hi Michelle,

Thank you so much. We are both keeping our cool about it until our 6 week u/s on October 1.

My poor husband is still in denial somewhat :) I actually took a 3rd pregnancy test on Thursday just to give him some reassurance where the results were much stronger and he still can't rap his head around it. His mind is completely focused on his semen evaluation and his 0% volume and low motility and the Dr. telling him that "this will never happen". He's having a hard time coming to terms that this is real. He's scared to get excited about it for fear that something will happen.

As for me, I'm thrilled - I would love to shout at the moon but I'm keeping my cool until the u/s. I'm feeling all sorts of stretches, cramps, discomfort and nausea every once in a while and as uncomfortable as it all is it's reassuring to feel because it means there are all sorts of changes that are taking place.

I'm making sure that I'm getting much needed rest and relaxation and I'm not worried too much. I just pray that the u/s goes well. I know that as the day draws near I'll get more antsy. I just can't wait until it's over. :)

Cheers,
Deni

P.S. I'll be sure to check out that movie!






Edited 9/25/2010 12:05 pm ET by taiwandeni
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Fri, 09-24-2010 - 3:34am
Hello and welcome! And congrats on that miracle BFP! You must both be so over the moon with this! Reminds me of the movie Facing the Giants but in real life! Yay! Can't wait to hear how your 6 week scan goes!

Michelle



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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 11:00am
Welcome back and congratulations! Have a HHNM.

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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 10:23am

Hey Kristi,

I live in a different country and from the last time I've perused these boards about 3 years ago I've learned that things are done differently here. Way differently... :)

I had assume that my doctor would give me a blood test but she didn't (I guess she wouldn't). Once they found out that I tested earlier this morning, she took me to do the u/s just to see if my working gear was in order - my uterus was thoroughly examined and we came across the sack. Usually here and everywhere else, they won't see you until you're at least 6 weeks...the only reason I went in today is because I wanted to make sure I'm doing everything I'm supposed to be doing - this is all new to me.

However, I think that we'll get more "down to business" when I go back on October 1st for my 6 week scan.

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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 10:10am
Wow, I'm amazed you saw
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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 9:28am

Hey SMA,

Well she told me that we probably wouldn't see anything because it was early and I was too nervous to take in everything. But she did a bunch of shifting and probing - I'm unnerved when I have that thing stuck up my "hoo hoo" and we saw the sack and she said: "This is most likely what we'll be focusing on."

We are scheduled for another appointment October 1 where she said that we'll most likely see more. But what I saw was similar to the attached. Granted, this is not mine, I googled it.

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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 9:12am
Wow I'm amazed they could see anything that early.
 


 


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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 2:00am
WOO HOO!!! Yay!! There's hope for more of us!!!
44- 5 children already- TTC number 6!
44- 5 children already- TTC number 6!
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Tue, 09-21-2010 - 1:40am

Wow, that was fast.

I called to make an appointment and it just so happened that there was an opening today.

I had my u/s done and there was that little black splotch. I'm four weeks and four days pregnant. I have another appointment on October 1st. I'm still afraid but unbelievably calm. My poor husband is thrilled but we are both trying to keep it cool.

I have to take it a bit easy because I have 4 small fibroids but three are insignificantly small and the one is not that big at all. I've always known about them.

Anyhow, I'm going to sit and take it all in and grab something to eat and watch a movie.

WOW!!!! And tomorrow (9/22) is my Birthday!

Lots of love and baby dust!!!!

Deni

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Mon, 09-20-2010 - 11:34pm
Told ya' Deni! Conratulations! It may take a while to sync in.
-Bridget



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#1Clomid baby, born 2003. Aaron!
#2Clomid baby, lost to heart defect in 2nd trimester, 2006

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