Strike 2

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Registered: 04-12-2007
Strike 2
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Tue, 04-24-2007 - 11:42am

I am officially not PG today. AF was a day late, and we got excited. Such a bigger let down. I was right, this month's failure is much sadder than last month's. From what I am reading, it looks like many more disappointments to come. I am having such a hard time staying positive. I have to decide now whether to go back on my antidepressants, because I don't think I can keep this up any longer without them. Then I have all those worries and risks to be afraid of. I have a massive crisis in my extended family going on as well, and my stress levels are just rising.

Plus, my newest nephew is due Thursday. What joy, to go see someone else's baby.

Help! It just seems too painful, but I have to keep trying.

Kim

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Registered: 02-28-2007
In reply to: nkb2007
Wed, 04-25-2007 - 5:55pm

Kim,

I am very sorry for your disappointment. :-( I know how you feel...

I actually think I might benefit from some antidepressants... I may ask my doctor about that since I'm not trying to conceive now anyhow. We'll see.

I wish you better luck in the future!

xxoo
Lois

  

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Registered: 04-23-2007
In reply to: nkb2007
Wed, 04-25-2007 - 7:19pm

Hi Kim,

Well, first off, I am so sorry that you did not conceive this month! I, too got AF yesterday and was prety disappointed! Try to stay positive and I'll send lots of baby dust your way!

Leslie

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Registered: 09-01-2006
In reply to: nkb2007
Wed, 04-25-2007 - 10:19pm

(((Hugs)))


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Registered: 01-15-2006
In reply to: nkb2007
Thu, 04-26-2007 - 7:31pm

Kim,

I'm sorry to hear about your BFN. I first started TTC in 1993 at the age of 27. Everyone and I mean everyone I knew was pregnant or had just had babies...like 10 immediate neighbors alone. I went to one of those neighbor tupperware type parties and I was sitting there and then all of a sudden I noticed that I was the ONLY woman in the room that wasn't pregnant or had just had a baby. I had a panic attack and went to the bathroom, started crying and then had to leave...mind you I had just experience a failed IVF, so hormones probably had something to do with it. My therapy was to work on the baby's nursery. I'm sure everyone thought I had completely lost it at this juncture, but I just didn't care...I KNEW I was going to be a mother, some how, some time. Six months later we started the adoption process and when the social worker did our home study, she said that she had never seen a nursery so put together with any other adoptive family. I put the pictures of the nursery in our Birthmother letter and then we were chosen within three weeks.

Sorry this got so long and off the subject, but I just had to refocus on something other than TTC, so I didn't completely lose my mind. Now that I'm an adoptive mom to two, I really don't have the time...thank goodness..to obsess like I did before.

Blessings,
~Kristi~

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Registered: 11-04-2006
In reply to: nkb2007
Fri, 04-27-2007 - 5:07pm

Kim, I am so sorry to read about your disappointment and all the struggles you have right now.


I have taken anti-depressants for 6 years and took them while ttc and while pg.

Emily (Ada's maman since 3/14/04)