Today's perspective

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Registered: 07-19-2006
Today's perspective
Mon, 03-23-2009 - 10:36am

I'm still digesting Friday's news that I have blocked tubes. Not an easy diagnosis to take, especially since I was kind of counting on a decent HSG so if my one round of IVF doesn't work I still have a shot naturally. But that is unlikely, so my perspective needed to change.

After a weekend of crazy thoughts in my mind, I'm come to this conclusion. I may have only chance at IVF, but it's a better chance that if I didn't have blocked tubes and tried on my own next month. Trying on my own gives me a 5 percent chance, IVF gives me a 30 percent chance. Still no guarantees, but better odds. And I think I might have a pretty good chance at this whole thing. Deep down I knew my elevated FSH wasn't the real problem here... I just knew it.

It's still scary though, to think my journey might end in a month. We will freeze any "leftovers," so to speak, if there are any, but we'll have to save for that process. And although I'm trying to not to get too wrapped up in the outcome of IVF and get my hopes up, it will be hard when dealing with all the daily shots and numerous appointments that I'm trying to hide from anyone and everyone.

I have two baby showers in the next month -- more stress -- and more reasons why I don't want everyone knowing what's going on, including my own mother... whom I usually tell everything, but don't want her asking me a zillion times a day how I feel or what's going on, etc. etc.

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Registered: 01-05-1999
Mon, 03-23-2009 - 11:15am
*hugs* I'm so sorry you got glum news. We understand if you "disappear" for a while.


Paula = 43; Mike = 38; Tubal reversal 12/4/08, one tube reparied; Healthy baby girl born 2/16/10; PG again, EDD 3/18/11!

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Registered: 01-21-2009
Mon, 03-23-2009 - 3:18pm

I'm really sorry for your disappointment/pain. I went through the same disappointing news a year ago and decided to have lap surgery 6 months later which determined my tubes were normal and "wide-opened".
I don't know if you thought about this or if someone else has mentioned it, but you may want to repeat the HSG with another radiologist. I think sometimes the skill/experience of the radiologist can make a difference. Just some ideas if needed :)


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Registered: 02-17-2009
Tue, 03-24-2009 - 7:24pm

So sorry to hear that news. Can't they "Clean out" those tubes? The Dr. told my friend he could clean out her tubes and then she can TTC...I don't know anything about that, just what she told me..


Me, Lisa, 41 1/2, DH, Howard, 51

TTC #1 (for me, DH has 2 DD) since 8/8/08 (wedding day)

Pg (Confirmed by Dr. on 3/11/2009), first day of last period was 2/4/2009

U/S approx 3/12/2009, shows small black mass in uterus w/yolk, tech said there were 2 eggs but just one fertilized (guess DH

Me, Lisa (42); DH, Howard (52); DSD, Laura (13); DSD, Juliana (7); DS, Alexander (6 months) Enjoying my #1 (born 11-2-2009 when I was 42) BFP #2 4-15-10 MC 4-21-10
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Registered: 07-19-2006
Tue, 03-24-2009 - 10:30pm

Yes, they can possibly clean them out, so to speak. But first we are trying IVF, since I have one opportunity to try before I turn 40 and insurance won't cover it.

So my next cycle is an IVF cycle, before I turn 40 in May. Then we will take it from there.

I met with my RE today, again, and it turns out my DH's SA showed poor mobility and low numbers. So we have a double reason to try IVF...

And the good news is that my FSH was lower! It was 8.3 to be exact, down from 14.4! That made me feel way better, for some strange reason...

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Registered: 07-25-2008
Wed, 03-25-2009 - 10:49pm

I'm sorry about

Beach Scene

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Registered: 04-08-2008
Wed, 03-25-2009 - 11:32pm

I am getting ready to go to bed, but I wanted to wish you the best of luck. I don't tell anyone about ttc! not even my mother! You never know how someone will react. You don't have to go to the baby showers. I have skipped several. You are not alone!