TTC at 43 for the first time

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Registered: 04-11-2009
TTC at 43 for the first time
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Sat, 04-11-2009 - 11:32pm

Hello to all!

I have been a fan of iVillage for a long time and happy that I finally got around to actually registering this evening (yey for me). I have read the different posts here and sometimes find solace in some of the stories and support I have read. I suppose it made me feel like I am not alone in my on-going quest for my first child at 43. My husband and I have been trying for about 4 years now and I must admit I am starting to feel "old" (lack of a better word). I remember waking up on my last b-day (nov. 2008) I am 43 years old... WOW! where did time go? I apologize if I sound rather down, I suppose I am...
Mother's day is almost here again and it's getting harder and harder to exist within the same breathing space as everyone else with children during this time along with all the holidays. To continue with my quest or to abandon my long time dream of motherhood, it is a quandary to me. I feel so incomplete in my life and frustrated that I am powerless to set back time.

My heart hurts so badly but I am glad I was able to vent... thank you

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Registered: 10-21-2008
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 1:18am

Welcome to our group.

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Registered: 08-17-2007
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 9:07am
Welcome. You've certainly come to the right place. Many of us share (or have shared) your feelings of disappointment and frustration, but there have also been many post-40 pregnancies and babies for us to celebrate. Melissa posts wisely -- have you gone for any tests? Good luck, and please post more about your journey.

Susan CB






Susan CB

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Registered: 09-13-2007
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 9:47am

Hugs to you!!!

 


 


Susan V

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Registered: 07-25-2008
Sun, 04-12-2009 - 10:54pm
Welcome.....TTC is a hard road sometimes especially during the holidays.
Beach Scene

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Registered: 04-11-2009
Tue, 04-14-2009 - 4:31am
First, thank you for all your kind words of encouragement.
I have been tested for hormones, on and off on clomid, still doing the calendar/fertility thing and some other tests I can't recall anymore. I've been able to conceive but can't seem to keep them healthy enough to stay with me. I keep my brain occupied with work to avoid "thinking about it" but even then I find myself thinking about it again when my mind wanders back to that cozy spot that makes me so happy (thoughts of holding my baby) and sad (what baby?) then I snap back to reality.
Sadly, I am the person at work everyone loves to talk to about their kids, how ironic... But I know they have no malice and probably just enjoy talking about their children as I probably would if I had a child.
On a lighter note... Reading "43 years young" made me smile and I showed the post to my husband and it made him (he's 49) smile so I suppose we're still in the running! (I just hope I can run faster than time) wish me luck!
...and thank's again :-)