Update...

So, it's Day 12 of my current period and I'm still bleeding a lot... :(. I tried to make an appointment with my OB-GYN but guess what, she's on vacation. Again. Okay, I understand it's missionary work, from what the assistant told me, and that's great, but what about the few patients right here in the STATES who are having a hard time conceiving!? She won't be back until the 2nd of April, and that's too late for me. I need medical attention now. But no, she's booked solid after that... So the assistant gave me the option of seeing either a male doctor or the nursing assistant who can do everything except surgery. I feel uncomfortable telling any male about my feminine issues (other than my husband), so I opted for the nursing assistant since at least, she'd be female.

However, called to cancel that appointment and decided to go straight to a fertility specialist instead, and have an appointment for this Tuesday. Hope she'll be able to help with my current menstrual issue of excessive bleeding and not just force expensive treatment options on my husband and me.I've been in a bad mood most of this weekend and it's been making things tense with my husband, too! As it is, I get bad PMS and become moody/emotional even during a normal period :(.

I dislike the impersonal nature of the medical profession and feel disgusted with my reproductive system right now. I feel so totally out of control, plus, I'm not happy in my current job and want to look for something new after this school year, but then feel like I'm in a dilemma because not many employers take kindly to a new employee planning pregnancy/getting pregnant, and I'd leave anyway once things progressed since I would want to be a SAHM, especially while the future child is very young... But I think I'm getting ahead of myself here :(. I'm just thankful that I don't associate with any pregnant women/women with kids right now and that whoever I hang out with, is in their 20s/early-30s and doesn't want kids right now (or ever)...

Sapna