It's been a while

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Registered: 11-16-2009
It's been a while
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Thu, 08-02-2012 - 1:26am

Hi all, I see so many new "faces" on the board. Well, the twins, Mark and Isabel are almost 10 months old, I just can't believe it. They are standing, crawling, Mark is beginning to cruise and Izzy is babbling up a storm, able to say DaDa and NaNa.

I've been depressed lately, which the doctor said is normal, however it's not PPD. I'm suffering from, "I'm not able to care or cuddle or hold or lift my own children syndrome." Alas, I've been forced to quit school again and I'm back on bedrest, even though this unassisted pregnancy is only a singleton.

For those of you who don't know me, I've been a member of this board for almost ten years, under two different names. My twins were conceived through IVF and when they were 3 months old, I found out I was pregnant, without any help, at 12 dpo. I was upset and maybe a little happy but not keeping my hopes up because this is my 8th pregnancy, so, when I made it to 12w, I was able to relax, then at 20w I came home after taking my mom on a 4 day cruise with the kids and my aunt to Mexico, only to find that I was 1.5cm dilated and 50% effaced. I received my cerclage that day and the orders, BEDREST!!! Not fun, as I'm only 6 months away from graduating with my RN and I was really excited to be done this year.

So far, this baby girl (we're doing a gender reveal baby shower in two weeks) little Aislynn-James Idolyn is an active and apparently very healthy baby, I am back to weekly u/s and doc visits and hope to deliver her beyond 36w. I have the cerclage removed 4 days before my twins turn 1. I'm nervous about having three babies under 1 essentially and trying to juggle that with going back to school in December. I am driven to finish.

My husband finally agreed that I can go on bc for a minimum of 9m so that my cervix can heal, as it did not have the ample time to recover from my vaginal delivery. I am excited to meet her and this will be my DH's fourth daughter. At least Mark does have a boy to grow up with, his nephew is 6mo younger than him, plus there will hopefully be a neice sometime in the next 14mo from their 21yo sister.

We are weird, as we do plan to use the two remaining embryos, many people think we are NUTS!

I'm glad to see all the BFP's, it's wonderful to see that for all the time and trouble it takes us, that we are successful. It only took me 13 years, two husbands and 6 m/c's before I had Mark and Izzy and there are days it is still surreal. I hope I always have that feeling.

Sorry this is so long, Good luck everyone!

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Registered: 11-13-2008
Thu, 08-02-2012 - 11:38am
It's so good to hear from you! The babies are so adorable, I can't believe how much they've grown.

Bedrest just stinks, no doubt about it. I bet it's hard to not being able to care for the twins they way you want after waiting so long for them. Just try to focus on the delivery of Aislynn and think about how full and fun your life will be after she's here and you are back on your feet. (((HUGS)))

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Registered: 11-16-2009
Thu, 08-02-2012 - 12:26pm

Thank you Melissa, it's more difficult when I check on them in the morning to lay out clothes and they're more excited to see my mother than they are to see me. I finally broke down in my doc's office a couple weeks ago because it was really starting to bother me. She said it was completely normal. It's the year of babies in this family, my SD's cousin (the same age) is expecting her second with her husband in about 3 weeks and her older sister is 10w with her second. She's newly married and has an 8yo, so she's excited too, though it's not when she expected it to happen. Then, in about 15m we will plan our next move with regard to the embryos we have frozen. My friend with identical twins (they babysit for us) is wishing quads on me. I told her not to do that!!! LOL.

Tonya

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Thu, 08-02-2012 - 12:41pm
Aww, that would hurt. I'm sure once you are able to be more active, and it will happen, they'll be back to being your little shadows. That is a lot of babies, it's happened that way in my family before, most was 6 babies in one year.

Quads... that would be quite an interesting experience :smileywink: Could you imagine the look on peoples face when you say you have 7 children under the age of 4?

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Fri, 08-03-2012 - 1:25pm
So sorry to hear that you're on bedrest. I hope that everything goes well for you for the remainder of your pregnancy. Your pics are so adorable! I can understand wanting to use the remaining embryos, I'm sure not everyone would understand. I guess I see them as your children and not everyone is ok with donating them and I could definitely never discard them if it was me. You never know what will happen. One thing at a time and see how you feel. So happy for you. I'm glad you updated us on how you're doing. I never got to know you, but had seen a few of your posts along the way. Best wishes with everything!

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Sat, 08-04-2012 - 3:42pm

Thank you DIna, it has been a tough decision about the embryos, my DH is worried I will have more problems if we use them at the same time, and we discussed donating them, which wouldn't be a problem, if I had 20 to donate, but I only got four good embies in the first place, we used two, so I feel funny about donating only two of them. I want to give them a chance, even if they don't take. Then, maybe one more spontaneous after that, then, I think I will be done. It would mean ten pregnancies total, but since I'm almost 40, I think it would round out everything, it's really funny, I've always wanted six kids and was so grateful for the twins and now for this one. I don't know what the future will bring, but it's going to be a good one.

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Sun, 08-05-2012 - 12:42pm
I love your positive outlook! Keep us posted and I can't wait to see pictures after you have your newest LO.

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Mon, 09-24-2012 - 9:35pm

It's good to hear that you and the twins are doing good.  They start to be so much fun at 10 months, moving around, babbling, pointing, and drawling on the walls.  lol  Good luck with the rest of this pregnancy.  It sucks that you have to be on bedrest for such a long time.


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