Beginning to feel lost and hopeless.

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Registered: 05-09-2013
Beginning to feel lost and hopeless.
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Sat, 05-11-2013 - 6:25pm

Hey all, I'm new to this site =] I've been online off and on looking for help and browsing as many how to get pregnant fast, the do's and dont's of TTC. And I'm beginning to feel hopeless about the entire thing. My fiance and I have been "trying" for over 2.5 years. (I only used "" marks to signify that my fiance doesn't seem to want to put in the effort anymore) Ever since we made the decision to do so, I live, breath and sleep baby. Everyone around me is pregnant or just had a child. My sister who didnt even want kids, whom is 4 years younger then me is pregnant, and wants me to host the baby shower for her. It hurts so badly and I have no friends that have had to try nearly as long as i have, my friends are sympathetic to me. But i dont think they truely understand how i feel. For every BFN i get it really feels like a piece of me shrivels up and drifts away. My fiance and i are fighting more and more over it and putting more stress on our relationship. He swears he want's to have a baby with me and he grins from ear to ear when he see's me holding a baby. But why on earth won't he put in the time?! I'm worried that I'm beginning to resent him, I don't want to feel that way towards him. I'm going to be 27 next month and my cut off for having kids is 30. Anyone have any advice on dealing with these negative emotions? I just don't know what to do. Please help any imput would be greatly appreciated.

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Registered: 06-29-2011
Fri, 05-17-2013 - 6:11pm

It's soooo hard, I have a lot of anger and bad feelings as well. I think you need to tell your sister that you just can't do it, you can be happy for her but that's just too much. Hopefully she'll understand and if not, oh well. Have you had any testing done to see if there are any problems? Just getting that done and knowing what we need to do has helped me. While I still fight feelings of being a failure, it helps to have a course of action. I still have hope that it will happen to me.