A few pictures and update

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A few pictures and update
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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 11:12am

Well, I'm home from the hospital (not particularly happy about that)... they kicked me out of the boarder room because L&D became completely full and they needed the room for patients. Although I completely understand that, they way it happened (someone with essentially no tact coming into the room at 10pm and saying I had until midnight to get out) was so jarring that I just lost it. I had to deal with "saying goodbye" and leaving my babies at the hospital for the first time and having it be so unexpected and communicated to me in that way just pushed me over the edge. Now we're working on getting a schedule down for me to be at the hospital all day (so much for that whole "don't drive after having a c section thing). We live 30 minutes away so going back and forth isn't really an option. Being at the hospital all day in order to be there for feedings, and to pump, etc. is so emotionally and physically draining I'm not handling it very well. There's really nowhere to be (it's either the cafeteria, or the NICU) so a lot of time I'm just sitting at their isolettes. You'd think that would be fine, but it's really incredibly draining to just sit there with way too much time on your hands to think about every little thing going on in there and how you've failed as a mother already. Plus there's nowhere to lie down or rest, so my feet are hugely swollen and I've just stopped checking my blood pressure altogether because I don't really want to know (I have

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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 12:50pm
Oh Andi, first of all, sending major HUGS for what you are going through right now. You are NOT failing as a mother--you have an extremely difficult situation to deal with, on top of recovering from surgery. It is very sad that the hospital doesn't have the resources to accommodate your situation! Does the doctor have a timeline for when you can expect to bring the girls home?
I'm glad the girls are catching on with BFing--BFing was my excuse for getting as much time as possible with Anna when she was in the special care nursery! It's awesome that they're at their birth weight already too! Is Juliette gaining less or is she just spitting up more?

Both girls are absolutely beautiful! I'm sending tons of P&PT that they will be ok to go home soon and that Juliette's digestion improves!
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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 1:15pm

(((HUGS))) Andi!

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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 3:15pm

Andi! I am so happy to hear that the girls are doing well. I can't imagine being in your position. I know you are so exhausted and it must be so hard to spend every day at the hospital with no place to rest...but even harder to stay away from your sweet babies. What a bitty that came into your room and gave you your 2 hours notice! I would have lost it too! Hang in there, girl!

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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 3:16pm
BTW...the girls are beautiful!!! And I'm so glad to hear they're doing pretty well with bfeeding!
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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 3:21pm

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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 5:33pm
Andi, it is so good to hear from you. You are going through so much, and my heart really goes out to you as you sit with your girls in the NICU. I'm sure it is a lonely feeling. Andrea's advice sounds pretty good! She knows what you are going through!

Thank you for sharing the pictures. They are precious! They look wonderful!

It's wonderful that they are making early progress with breastfeeding. You know what is SO amazing? The nutritional make-up of breastmilk is different from the mom of a premie than the milk produced by a mom at full term. Isn't it amazing that your body knowns exactly what your little sweeties need???

Good luck!! Hang in there, Andi!
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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 7:29pm
(((hugs))) Andi - your post totally brought back so many feelings from when Evan was in the NICU. It's really hard and really draining. Can you bring some stuff to do while you're there to help you relax a bit? I found bringing mindless magazines or books, or knitting, or something helped keep my mind from going off in all sorts of directions.

You're doing a great job with the pumping, and BFing, and just being their for your beautiful little girls. You are SO not a failure! You're doing the best you can in a not-so-great situation. It doesn't help that you have to deal with tactless people on top of it all (good Lord, why do they have people like that working in the NICU/LD wards??).

Hang in there, hon. If you ever want to talk, just PM me!




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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 8:08pm
Huge hugs Andi! You are a GREAT mom and those girls are ADORABLE! So cute! You are doing fabulous going through all you are and still being a great mom. You might not feel like it, but I will say hospitals drain you period. Whether its being hanging out in the NICU, in the rooms, etc. It really takes a toll on you physically, then add in other issues, and its no wonder you are feeling like you are. Like Andrea said bring stuff to keep you busy, the more mindless the better. You won't be able to concentrate anyway. Hugs to you! Thanks for the update and the pics!

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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 8:28pm

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Mon, 06-13-2011 - 8:48pm
Andi,

Your girls are so lovely and so sweet!!! I'm so sorry things are so stressful in NICU and how completely tactless of that nurse to haul you out last minute. I hope and pray your girls continue to get stronger and are able to go home very soon. And hello there POWERFUL MOM, breastfeeding and pumping TWIN PREEMIES!!!!! Give yourself a HUGE pat on the back and high five for just that accomplishment alone. I'm in awe, truly, and you are so NOT a failure. Many many many hugs!!!

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