PPD

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Sat, 06-26-2010 - 10:05am
This post isn't an easy one to write. I've always thought that I would never become one of "those" people. In the last few weeks I have realized that I need some help. I am going to call my doctor on Monday because I think that I have postpartum depression and anxiety. I looked online at the lists for each and I have over half of the symptoms that are on there. Yesterday was a pretty hard day for me. I never take any anger out on the baby, he is the only thing that makes me happy. I just know this is not how I normally act- and it has been putting a strain on me and DH. My anxiety has been out of control lately. I live in NY where we hardly ever get tornadoes, maybe once every few years there is one, but it is never bad. Well I have this anxiety that we are going to get a tornado here and we are going to die. It was so bad that the other night we went to my Mom's house to sleep because she has a basement and we don't. I get these feelings every time they say a thunderstorm is coming through. I hate feeling like this. Hopefully the doctor can give me some suggestions or something that will be able to help me, because right now I am up for anything.
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Registered: 11-13-2008
In reply to: cherylll01
Mon, 06-28-2010 - 4:31pm

(((HUGS))) Cheryl.

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In reply to: cherylll01
Sun, 06-27-2010 - 7:59pm

Cheryl - (((((HUGS)))) I feel for you! While I am not a mom yet, I know all about depression. I started feeling not quite myself a few months back. Good for you for recognizing that something isn't right and for reaching out for help.

We are hear for you and so is your doctor. I am sure you will be able to start feeling back to yourself in no time.

((((HUGS)))) Hang in there









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In reply to: cherylll01
Sun, 06-27-2010 - 2:13am

Sorry Cheryll. I find myself worrying about ridiculous, horrible things too lately...like...well now I can't think of anything. But for me the thoughts are fleeting and always different. I don't know how much of mine is anxiety or just the constant worries of a new mother?

And sometimes at night I get kinda weepy...but I think it's just pure exhaustion. By the end of the day I just feel used up. I'm finding it very hard to find "me" time or to make time for my husband. And it's just going to get worse when I go back to work in August...

Hope you can get in to see your doctor on Monday.

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Sat, 06-26-2010 - 9:42pm

(((HUGS))) Cheryl--I agree with everyone--you have already made huge strides that you are identifying something that you want to change, and are working to get help to change it.

I think some form of PPD or "post-pregnancy effect" is INCREDIBLY common--but it obviously hits some people harder than others. You are an amazing Mom and wife and you will get through this and probably be stronger for it. Keep us posted and let us know if you need anything.

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In reply to: cherylll01
Sat, 06-26-2010 - 6:46pm
Cheryl, I'm very sorry that you are going through this... Try to think that this is something that a lot of moms experience, and that with a little bit of help you will get better.
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In reply to: cherylll01
Sat, 06-26-2010 - 5:20pm

(((hugs))) Cheryl. Realizing you have a problem and going to seek help are two HUGE steps. The hardest ones to take. I am proud of you for making that call. Be sure to let us know how things go.

I have an anxiety disorder, and medicine certainly helps. I also suffer from hormonal induced depression, so when I had Ray they put me on anti-depressants in my 3rd trimester, to help ward of PPD. While they helped some, it was not a cure-all. Make sure you have a good support system in place and someone you can talk to about your feelings.

All the best.

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Registered: 11-15-2005
In reply to: cherylll01
Sat, 06-26-2010 - 4:02pm
*hugs* I'm sorry honny ... I had PPD after both my pregnancies! Be honest with your doctor .. I hope your feeling better soon and let us know if you need to talk or vent or if we can do anything .. Take care sweetie. *hugs*




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In reply to: cherylll01
Sat, 06-26-2010 - 12:24pm

Cheryl - I'm so sorry you're struggling right now, but it takes real strength to know when you need help. Your fears about a tornado reminds me of a woman my therapist told me about: she was absolutely deathly afraid (and sure) that she was going to kill her baby. She just could not get the thoughts out of her head.

One thing that worked for her was a saturation technique. She voiced her fear over and over (and I mean 1000 times in a row). I did the same thing when I was having fears of never being able to get pregnant or being able to carry a child to term after my miscarriage. It is absolutely heart wrenching at first - but once I got to the 200th repeat, I came to a point where I was bored with my thought. The point is to do it whenever you have the thought, and it calms you because you end up getting bored of it.

Not sure if it would work for you - and you might not want to try it on your own since it is such a difficult method, but you might suggest it to a therapist if you end up going that route.

I also want to say that you shouldn't feel embarrassed, or that you're one of "those" people. So many people deal with so many things, just behind closed doors. You are definitely not alone in your fears.

(((hugs))) to you - if you ever want to talk about things, feel free to email me!





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Registered: 11-13-2005
In reply to: cherylll01
Sat, 06-26-2010 - 11:51am

Julie,

Thank you. I know that so many women are or were in the same position that I am now. My plan is to call the doctor on Monday and then we will go from there. The thing is some days I feel fine, but then there are days I feel like I did yesterday. I will KUP on how things are going.

How is Ethan doing? I can't believe our babies are almost 3 months old now.

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In reply to: cherylll01
Sat, 06-26-2010 - 11:10am

(((hugs))) to you Cheryl.

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