Holy BFP Batman!!!
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|Fri, 01-14-2011 - 10:49am|
(copy & paste from EC! I dont have the energy to re-write! :(
I can't believe I am really going to post this right now ... That seems to make this all the more real!!! I was debating if I should or not but why the heck not ... I could use all the support I can get right now! So Hello!
My name is Alyson, I live in Sunny Florida with my two kiddos, Isabella (5) and Tristan (2) I am expecting baby #3! and this is a HUGE surprise! You see my Dh and I split up back in July 2010 and have been living separately since then! We are on the road to divorce right now papers have been filed. Well we had ONE yes ONE night around the holidays together and used Birth Control ... and well SUPRISE!
I got a BFP a couple days ago! I still can't really believe it!
I have some health problems and I was told last year that we probably couldn't have any more kids.
That it was 'very unlikely' in the doctors words! So my Ex-Dh decided
that even though he didn't want anymore kids this meant he didn't need
to get a Vasectomy! And well we weren't together or really getting along
at all! (drama drama drama) most of last year. But he's been so helpful
lately and we have been just within the last month really getting along
again from a distance. We in no way plan on getting back together
though, but we enjoy each others 'company' and we'll we are still
married! Ha! So I saw nothing wrong with ONE night! but yea! I'm
freaking out now ....Just a LOT!!!!!! I had the most overdramatic year
every last year between custody drama, my health problems and the
separation/move! I felt like I was JUST catching a break and leveling
think babies are blessings regardless but I had no plans of having
another child, so I am having a hard time coming to terms with this. It
was hard for me to accept I wasn't going to be able to have anymore kids
(more then likely) then with everything going on in my life, I decided 2
was okay! and I was okay with that .... I always thought I'd have more
kids but I was really okay with just 2! Reality is sinking in and I just
don't know what to do or think! I feel like a jerk not being excited
but this is way more scary then exciting! I don't mean to offend anybody that's TTC or anything so don't hate me! I just need a hug!
We are not in a good place in our relationship to have another kid right now .. Financially things are really bad ... and emotionally I am in no way ready for baby #3 but .. Ready or not here s/he comes ... Due on Sept. 18th!!
I'm going to the doctor tomorrow because not only am I high risk, I'm also on a lot meds for my health issues and I'm not sure what I can take so thankfully they got me in quick. I found out at like 11p on Wends night! eek!
So yea .. That's the 'Cliff' notes of my story! Crazy eh?