Rant: Annoying Self. :)

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Rant: Annoying Self. :)
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Wed, 02-16-2011 - 11:47am

So, I'm really annoyed with myself. (nice opener huh?)

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Wed, 02-16-2011 - 12:38pm
Ok I'll try! ;)
I think it's perfectly normal. The second you know you're pg, all you want to do is protect this little life ( or in your case, two little lives!). And then all those possibilities of what can go wrong come crashing down on you, and it can be too much to take in and it's easy for the worry to overpower you.
I guess I'm mich the same in that I sometimes get carried away by it all- part the reason why I want to get a name sorted out is that if he dies now, at least he will have a name... No idea why I keep thinking this way!
DH is very good in stopping me from worrying and telling me when I spiral out of control with it; it does help a lot! I don't know how your DH reacts, is he nervous too?
I'd say as long as you're able to enjoy it some of the time, you're ok. It's probably part of your personality (planner/worrier, anyone?). It won't get any better nice they're outside though, I still think of what horrible things could happen to Teddy and have the odd "if he dies now, at least we had two wonderful years with him" thought.
Just to cheer you up ;)

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Registered: 02-21-2008
Wed, 02-16-2011 - 3:30pm

Oh, Andi, I could

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Registered: 01-29-2008
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 2:33am
I think its normal. I am always thinking of the what ifs. i want to have stuff because if something does go wrong, at least I have proof he existed. I worry every appt they won't find his heartbeat. If he doesn't move I start poking to see if he'll move. I think the moment you find out you get this instinct to protect at all costs and since you can't see them you can't fully protect them from anything happening.

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Thank you Dedi and Kelly for my
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Registered: 03-08-2008
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 9:31am

Um, yeah.






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Registered: 02-11-2009
Thu, 02-17-2011 - 11:40am

Thanks ladies! I guess it's totally morbid when you "put it on paper", which is probably why a lot of women don't voice their fears I guess. It just helps me to know I'm not some complete weirdo for having these thoughts and feelings.

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Thu, 02-17-2011 - 12:30pm
I'm totally like you. And I never talk about it or write about it because it makes the fears feel more "real". When I was pregnant I was relaxed about it. But once Fede was born and we those dreadful weeks in the NICU, I became so worried about everything! I remember waking up constantly in the middle of the night just to check if he was breathing, and freaking out BIG TIME with every little illness.... I'm not so scared of illness anymore, but I still worry a lot about accidents and such. I haven't figured out how to control those fears yet. The only thing i know for sure is that the more you obsess about it, the worse, so I try to distract myself from those dark thoughts. Also, every night once Fede is asleep I go to his room and pray for a little while to God, that He may keep my family safe and give Fede a long, happy life. It helps a little bit.

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