BFN at 10 DPO but ...
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|Thu, 04-29-2010 - 7:28am|
I am coping this over from another board sorry if it's a repeat for anybody .. but I just had to share! ;)
Dh comes in our room EARLY this AM before we went to the gym to tell me that he had the craziest dream last night that I was pregnant and everything was so wonderful and we were so happy .. etc etc ... Soooo We chatted for a little while .. I told him I had just tested and was happy to report that I got a BFN .. thinking he would be relieved .. He's not .. lol .. He thinks we should causally TTC now .. as we had planned!?! MEN! Gotta love it!
So I guess I am off the "unofficially TTC" bench and in the big leagues now ... We are going to TTC until June and if it doesn't happen by then we will take a break until next Jan-June (I only want a spring baby .. Summer pregnancy's were so hard on me here in FL! Hoping if we time it better we can avoid some of the discomfort and health issues I had in both pregnancies! So that's the plan .. I know it's hard to be that picky but right now we have the luxury of being able to ... We still have time to conceive again and we doesn't really matter as long as it's with in the next couple of years. We have never had a problem TTC before ... so hopefully that's the case again and our pickyness works out! ;)
OMG .. I can't even believe I am typing this .. Life is crazy ... As for DH and I ... our relationship is not perfect, probably never will be but I love him and he loves me and we love our family and know this is right .. maybe we are just having a 7 year itch... who knows .. but it seems to be passing every day and we have been getting closer and closer and things get easier and happier every day ... it's been a long road ... and I hoping a baby is at the end of it ... to complete our family and culminate this "journey." you KWIM ... :) I think we are just going to continue to take things slow and work towards our goals like we have been doing but if a baby happens to be in gods plan for us right now then GREAT but I really don't want to put that much pressure on that topic right now ... So I am going to leave it at we are "casually TTC" :)
I hope that makes sense and I am not sounding too nutty right now!
We know a baby doesn't fix things .. and that's not what we are trying to do ... we're family and we can't imagine not being family .. I will always think of Dh that way .. and I couldn't imagine anybody else being the father of my kids! :)
I don't think I will get a BFP this cycle but you never know ... I just have a feeling AF is on her way!?! Plus we somewhat used precautions this cycle.
Okay that's enough of my rant .. I had to sort out what I was thinking someplace .. this is a total 180 .. Soo honestly, Am I nuts for considering this?! :-/ Try to be nice! lol ;)