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Glad to hear your first day went well. I agree with everyone else and just keep doing what you're doing. You're the parent, and you get to make the decisions. Like you said, it was just the first day - it will get better!
(((hugs))) and hang in there!
I'm glad to hear that you did okay.
Thought I would give an update (partially x-posted from baby chat thread).
Selin refused to take a bottle until last Friday so she basically starved herself everyday, which of course made me feel terrible. It's still hit or miss but she now takes at least one/day. Yesterday while at my parents, she only took an ounce in the morning but then sucked down two 4oz bottles back to back in the afternoon. She must've been full because she wasn't crazy hungry when I got home.
She usually wants to nurse for about 30 min. after I get home and at bedtime for 45-60 min, which is exhausting for me. The last two nights she's woken up a few times throughout the night so I've gotten very little sleep. I'm not sure if it's teething or what but I miss the STTN, esp. now that I'm back at work and am up at 5:30 every morning. By the time she goes to bed, I'm completely drained but force myself to prepare for the next day so I don't have to do it in the morning.
I'm still looking for PT work and we're also investigating buying private insurance so we don't have to be tied to either one of our jobs for insurance. I just keep telling myself that this is only temporary, that's the only way I get through each day. The first 2-3 days were very hard for me emotionally but now I can get through the day without getting teary-eyed.
Pumping is going great - I usually get about 4-5 oz. total per session. My boss is on me about making up the time though, which I think is BS since the smokers who take smoke breaks all day don't have to make up the time, but I've been trying to come in a little early to make up the difference. Just shows you how inflexible she is. :-/
Thanks for all the hugs and support!
I am glad it's starting to get better. Sorry you are so drained though. Hang in there, like you said it's only temporary....
That is BS about your boss. I think there are laws (so you might want to check into it) about breastfeeding and breaks. I know in MN they have to give you unpaid time to do it, but I guess that will still make your boss want you to make up the time. I agree with the smokers, we have a few here and that work the same hours as I do, but take like 3 to 4 smoke breaks, and here you have to go off the property (can't even smoke in your car) so it takes them extra amount of time....
I didn't take the time to read all the replies to your post,
Thanks ladies for all the support and info.
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Christine, I'm glad that Selin is getting used to the bottle. I knew she would start taking one eventually. The increased nursing at night sounds like reverse cycling, which, from what I understand, is really common for a baby whose Mom has just returned to work. I bet once she starts eating more food and her nutritional demands on you aren't so high, she will go back to eating a little less at night.
Your boss sounds like a real b*tch, hopefully she stays off your back about pumping--I really admire you for going in early despite being so tired and everything going on. You are just a super Momma.
Cross-posted from Baby Chat
I actually have a positive update on my job search. For the last few months, I have been in contact with one of the women from my LLL group who owns her own petsitting business and one of her main walkers is leaving so she has basically offered me the job! We're going to meet up on Sunday at her office to go over all the details but DH and I have discussed and based on the info she's given me so far, I'm probably going to take the job. So, I very well might be giving my 2 weeks notice early next week - I can't wait!! I will no longer have to commute and I will be able to be with Selin more during the day and even bring her with me on some of the dog walks as long as the dogs aren't rambunctious. I'll know more after Sunday but so far it sounds like it will work and the lady is really sympathetic to my situation and wants to help me be as close to Selin as possible. She's also a nursing mom so she knows how hard it is to be working and nursing.