Finally Friday - Long and tortured
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|Fri, 05-09-2014 - 1:18am|
Okay yesterday was the worst. Not only was it the 11-week anniversary of Danny's death, but Kate had a meltdown and said she "wanted to die." She was crying, said she didn't want to live anymore, couldn't do it really, and when I couldn't talk reason to her... we proceeded to the emergency room. Thank God she knew enough to talk to me before trying to hurt herself.
She has been grieving this whole time, but this is the first I've seen her suicidal. Come to find out today that she has been drinking and smoking pot, in addition to smoking cigarettes (which I'd already caught her at). I would love to know just which idiot/s are supplying her with this stuff, but she isn't naming names. I explained that depression is made worse by drugs and alcohol, not to mention both are illegal at her age so she needs to cool it. UGH!!! She scared at least a decade off me with this stunt, probably more. Our little community can't handle any more teen deaths. We really can't, especially precious Katie. Danny would freak -- he didn't do ANY OF THAT NONSENSE and was very protective of her!
Anyway, they said she needs to be on medication for this depression that resulted from her acute grief reaction. Hopefully the mood stabilizer will get Katie up and interacting with life again in a productive manner. She will get a new therapist to go along with the psychiatrist, hopefully someone she can talk to this time. Good thing I'm rich (right!) but I promised her from the beginning we'd provide all the counseling she needs and we will. She seemed grateful that I didn't just "drop her off" at a psych facility which was what she feared. I was like "yeah, because I've abandoned you so often in your life" (but honestly if she's a danger to herself or others -- I'll drop her off right now, don't doubt it for a minute).
So here we go into Mother's Day. I hope yours is much smoother sailing. Please let us know what you did for the mom(s), and how your weekend went. I will soak up any vicarious joy I can get.
HAPPY MOM'S DAY!!!