So I've been subbing because even with two degrees now, I can't find steady stable work in Michigan, which is why I am so moving east. But anywhoo, I subbed for middle school for two days...
WTF??????? Now, I can recall being obnoxious and even a smart mouth but I'll be DAMNED if I was "academically challenged" on top of that?? And then when I was checked, I backed up and sat my but down.
This new group thinks they can get in your face, lie to you, lie on you, aggravate you and then don't know SQUAT. Now maybe this is a geographical problem. Urban setting and all, but wow. I've noticed that the papers are FULL TO THE BRIM with ads for middle school and high school teachers. If I had a secondary endorsement, I'd have jobs a plenty to choose from. But I'm an elementary teacher, less postings and a bigger pool of candidates.
Anywhoo, two days with middle school and I was physically and emotionally drained. I ached all over and woke up yesterday with a headache. Just two days. My best friend worked in middle school for 4 months and just quit yesterday. He told me he felt this way everyday. Again maybe it's particular environments that cause this type of stress but OMG, how do you survive it??
Cause I was so close to saying the wrong things to these children. Yes, I'm the teacher and I'm the grown up I know, but you take the high road, walk away and they keep coming at you. At one point I had to ask some of them to go somewhere else cause I felt if I wasn't left alone, they would get told off. That's how far some of those kids took me. I'm standing there praying in my mind and talking myself down.
I felt horrible that I would even think to treat a child that way but two of them were asking for it and asking for it HARD. But I stayed calm. Mainly because I knew I wouldn't have to see them again. If that was my everyday job, I know I would have slipped and been in big trouble for it.
God bless Middle and High School Teachers. I can say with all certainty, YOU ARE BETTER THAN ME. *bowing down to you right now*