I'm new to this board. I have twins that are 18 months old, one boy and one girl. We had always talked about having two kids, one boy and one girl, so our family seems perfect.
It took us almost a year and our first round of clomid to conceive the twins. When I was in early pregnancy, I had spotting. The ultrasound showed 3 growing babies. We lost the third baby a week later.
Ever since then, I had the feeling that we were supposed to know about that third baby. I believe God gives us what we can handle and he didn't think we were ready for 3 babies at that time. I do think we're supposed to have that third baby though.
It took me over a year to tell my husband about this feeling. It took him another 6 months to talk to me about it again. We've now decided we want another child in our family but we're not ready financially or logistically yet.
We are waiting until this Summer to try. I worry that it will take us a long time or that it will never happen. I'm glad to find this board to help with my baby fever and this feeling of hopelessness for the child that will complete our family.
Wow that was longer than I expected! Sorry about that.