I've told my DF exactly what my fantasies are. He shared one of his with me and that was to have anal. Well, I'm in my early 30's and never before have done this and quite frankly, I was scared to death of the pain and freaked out over the possible 'grossness' of it all. But, this is a man I truly love, respect, and trust immensely. I've never felt this way about anyone. So I agreed to look into it. I got some advice and info (from this site, actually) and bought the lube and a toy. I first practiced on myself to learn how I am back there so I can have better control when it's he and I doing it. I shared my knowledge with him and he read up on it too. The night finally came and it was phenomenal!!!!! It did hurt at first but I trusted him so much and he talked to me the entire time which really helped. But the fact that I was making his fantasy a reality and he was feeling so awsome from it, I got through and and actually orgasmed myself!!! Now we do this about once a month. For me, it was a sacrafice to make this fantasy come true for him...but I did it!

He wanted to know my fantasies, and I told him. However, they have yet to happen. One thing I want is to watch some porn with him. I know he has a few DVDs and does watch them on occasion. The very first time we talked he mentioned us watching porn together and how cool it was that I didn't have a problem with porn. After a month of my asking about this fantasy, he finally came up with a couple of DVDs but when the time came, we never watched them and he has since put them away. This was nearly four months ago!!!! I asked him again, about a month ago, if we are ever going to make my fantasy a reality and he said, "You know we will do it". And that was it. It's been like this with a couple other small fantasies of mine.

So what do I do? Get my own DVD and just pop it in myself??? I'm not that bold but it's to the point now where I have to do what I have to do. The thing with my DF is he is more reserved. He's definitely not as wild in bed as I am and want to be. He never complains though. It's just a little frustrating on my part, to be so turned on and in love yet I don't really get to act on it the way I would like.