It's difficult to over come this "dwelling" on the past incidents... It's really long to explain so I'll make it short and to the point, bad things have happened since I was young so it's very difficult for me to trust people and he knew this when we first started going out. Well he's done several things to make me question or in other words not trust him at all. Everytime he did one of those things I wanted, and should have left and I have no clue why I've stayed. Of course besides I love him. But we've been together for 2 1/2 years and all that happened with in the first year but I can't get over it I can't just forgive him for it and let everything go back to the way it was it could never go back to good anyway. Any advice on what to do would be great.. I'm only 21 and he's 24 we our lease just ended so we're back at are parents and it's NOT easy.
I feel as though I love him and want him by my side forever but on the other hand I feel as though it's useless to even try anymore.