I'm very confused about my own feelings right now. I've been together with my boyfriend for more than 2 years. But I guess it wasnot really that great. I've been feeling low since November last year. We've had arguments in the past, sadness & anger. It seems to me that he demands quite a lot from me & is very difficult to understand me. It's like he cares most about his own feelings. Of course at times he is very sweet and nice to me, made me feel happy too. Sometimes when he said about what he's done to me, explaining his point of view, they all sound good that I sort of agree with him that perhaps he's right about me not really supportive or not nice, etc.
The problem is I'm very doubtful as a person and it's very hard for me to be certain of many things. Well obviusly I believe that he still loves me. But is it the kind of love that I expect or need? I wonder if this relatinship is healthy.
Anyway, just when I've started feeling low & thinking about breaking up, I started to like this other guy. I cant say I'm really friend with this guy. I barely know him. Just in March I had a temporary break up with my boyfriend, but then he came over to my place and convinced me about us being together. I thought the feelings for him that I've lost started to come back to me that day. I know that my bf is a good man and he is very determined and loyal to me. It's just that I dont know if I can stand his temper, attitude and the way he treated me sometimes. At that day also I confessed to him about what happened to me, what I've been thinking and about this other guy that I liked. He knows this guy as well and he was surprised to find out I liked this guy. I convinced myself that the feelings for that guy were wrong and perhaps I was just dreaming bcoz I want to escape from reality. My boyfriend convinced me too that this guy is not good anyway since he likes chatting up girls. My bf also told me this guy told him that he just had a few months relationship with this girl (whom we all know) bcause she's easy.
Somehow things are just not going on well. We had a fight just few weeks ago. And I cant help myself not to think of this other guy. I noticed him looking at me a few times when we hung out together with some friends (including my boyfriend) early this year (at that time I was feeling somethig for him too). Well as I said I barely know this guy, but how come I cried many times at night thinking about him & the few moments we had instead of thinking about my boyfriend????
To cut the story short, my real question is that if my feelings are real for this guy or not? Is it possible to like 2 guys at the same time (are they true feelings) ??
Thank you in advance.