Wow, I had a weird night. There was a big screw up w/ my DR's office and the med I take for fibromyalgia pain wasn't filled, so I missed it for 6 days. Whoa. My pain totally amped up. Anyway, I finally got a refill last night, but I had to take some Ultram for breakthrough pain. It just conked me out about 8:30. So, I woke up about 5 am feeling a little wonky. I took a shower, got in bed next to DH, put XM Chill o (it plays stuff like Air, Sigur Ros, Boards of Canada, etc) and put my body lotion on. He kind of noticed his naked wife next to him and wisely took advantage of the situation. YUM.... 3 hours of bliss. We did everything to every part of our bodies and he was very late for work. Except now I am craving a cigarette so bad I might lose my mind!
I know I talk a lot about the hurt and betrayal his affair makes me feel. I am desperately in love with DH though, and I know he is with me. This is just a big bump in our road, but it's not going to ruin us. The particular psychopath he had the affair with thought she got all good parts I get to have and thought this would destroy me. She was so terribly wrong.