My boyfriend cheated on me after dating for 2 years. He apologizes everyday for it and says he feels horrible and has been trying to make up for what he did. He showed up to my door unexpected, numerous times, crying and apologizing. He wrote me a 9 page letter explaining his love for me and how he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. He proceeds to make an effort to fix this broken relationship and it really shows, but the thing is....this isn't the first time this has happened.
I keep thinking over and over again what I've done wrong and how someone I love so much do this to me. He has changed so much for me since the first time this has happened and I can't believe that he actually did it again. I want to say that he will never do it again but I don't know if it won't. I believe that he is truely sorry and that he does love me but why cheat if you love me? And why do it again after you know how much it hurt the first time?
Sorry for venting so much about this but I honestly can't talk to my friends about this because they judge too quickly and believe that I'm being stupid for allowing him to come back into my life.