Hello ladies, I'm new here. The name is Cassandra :)
I've decided to join in here as I just went through my second miscarriage. The first was 6 years ago, actually exactly. Both pregnancies had the exact same EDD. Anyway, the first was unplanned, but still heartbreaking none the less. I didn't find out until I had my first ultrasound at 11 weeks, and it didn't pass until almost 13 weeks and resulted in a 9 hour ER visit.
This time around, my husband and I were actively trying, and got PG on our second try. Right from the start I kind of felt like it wasn't real. I had very few symptoms, and I just couldn't put it in my head that I had a baby in me, and had even told my mom and husband as much. DH and I went in for our first u/s at 8w2d, and sure enough, it was a blighted ovum, no baby :( It was heartbreaking, mostly because this is now my second m/c in as many pregnancies which leads me to believe something is wrong. Luckily, I have an amazing doctor that has done the full recurrent pregnancy loss workup and we're just waiting for the results now before we can start trying again.
I'm so anxious to start trying again, this whole not knowing if something is wrong or if it was just a fluke is killing me. If I find out I can never carry a healthy baby, my world will be completely and utterly shattered. All I've ever cared about in this life is becoming a mom, and to think that that might not be possible is seriously the worse possible thing I could imagine.
Anyway, just hoping for some support, some words of encouragement, and hopefully lots of success stories of other women that have had multiple losses.
Thank you all for reading :)