Nurse just called. My E2 is almost 1,000. That is REALLY high for not having any mature follicles but they can't tell how much of that is coming from my follicles and how much of it is coming from my Estrace with is straight Estrogen. I am betting most of it is coming from the Estrace because it just doesn't make any sense to have a level that high without mature follicles. I was told to take my current dose and come back in on Tuesday.
Anyway, had a good talk with the nurse. Not good news, but a good talk. She said that when Dr. Perloe says that we should not give up on this cycle and that we just have to keep at it and be patient, he is speaking from a medical standpoint. He is not considering that EVERY time I am sidelined for three more days costs me $600 to $800 more dollars. At this point even if we got a miracle and saw good growth on Tuesday, I would still need at least 3 more days of drugs to get to maturity.
She basically leveled with me and said that if we don't see anything on Tuesday, than she would probably stop if she were me and I am inclined to agree. At some point, I have to just recognize that this cycle is not working out and hope that it works out better next month. I don't want to waste all the money I have left on a pointless cycle and not have enough to try again next month.
So the only question that leaves me with is if I give up on this cycle, I'd like to stil try on our own in case I ever O. I just don't know if I can use OPK's at all because the drugs I am on have a small amount of LH in them so if I stop them Tuesday when I will obviously know that I am no where close to O'ing, can I rely on OPK's at all this month or do we just have to DTD as much as possible throughout the next two weeks and wait on AF? Maybe I can do OPK's and we can do another follicle check when I get my + OPK? I really thought I remembered them saying though that sometimes there is no LH surge when you are on injectables so OPK's aren't reliable. I will ask when I go in on Tuesday. I forgot to ask today.
I should be devestated. But that's not the right word for how I'm feeling right now. I am tired and frustrated.
I am really just wondering if I need to stop all this all together. How many years have to go by before I get it? This is NOT happening for me! :(