Hi, all. I wanted to introduce myself and hopefully find a place where I could obsess about this scary journey I am about to embark on with other women going through the same thing. I am 39 (40 in august...shudder!) and my husband of 2 years will be 42 next month. He has a 21 year old son from a previous marriage. I waited to be a mom until I found "the one". I'm terrified I waited so long. When it didn't happen "naturally" we went to see my OBGYN, went in to have a cyst removed on my ovary and a d & c due to polyps. Found out while getting my stitches out by an offhanded comment from my OBGYN...they had to remove my one fallopean tube, and oh by the way, the other one is useless too. I was devistated.
So we started all the IVF pre-requisite testing at one center, only to find out that my insurance covers MUCH more at another center, so we have our consultation there this coming wednesday. As I was supposed to start the IVF cycle in April, I'm hoping they will say the same at the new center.
I am TERRIFIED. Scared of all the injections, procedures, and hormonal changes I will be forced to deal with, but mostly I am scared of the failure. After years of hearing "don't worry, women have babies well into their 40s with no problem!" , seeing the RE pull up that damned chart and showing my the success rates for a 39 year old is around 20%....ugh.
Sorry for the long post, but I know I will be on here OFTEN, lurking and posting, and hoping to receive and give support, I figured a comprehensive intro was in order :)
Hope to have some "Cycle buddies" and I will be praying for all of you as I continue to pray for the one thing I always wanted...