Ok I am about to lose it guys.

I went on facebook and just saw that my DH stupid cousin is pregnant. Let me just recap for you guys who has gotten pregnant in the last year.

1. My sister - actually she gave birth last year and although it makes me sad she is a mom she is so super supportive and I love my niece so I am the most ok with this.

2. My SIL - she would be the one who is with a dead beat guy who might even be abusive to her. Neither have a job, are on tons of government assistance, and are a mess. And they get pregnant on purpose. Then she did not want to believe she was not producing enough milk and ended up making the baby malnurished and jaundice and it was in the ICU for like 3 days. I mean she is the poster child for someone who does not deserve to be a mom.

3. My DH cousin in NY who was (and possibly still is) an alcholic. They got trashed at my wedding and her fiance wore jeans to my wedding. (We are by no means snobs but it was not a redneck wedding and torn up jeans was NOT ok)

4. My DH other cousin who just got married. I do not know much about them aside from the fact I do not think they have jobs either or just moved out of their mothers house. Either way they are certainly not in the same place my DH and I are.

Add in the fact I do not feel any different this cycle. And my DH and I could not muster enough desire (or ability) to have sex the second day after our IUI like our RE said we should. I only had one egg and I just feel done. I am done and sitting here about to cry over the whole thing.

I know my DH did not tell me to help save my feelings but I wish he would have told me instead of me reading it on facebook.

I just cannot do it anymore.