Ok guys I am reaching freak out point. This two week wait is worse then the original 2ww. Other then the sensative nipples (which I feel might be slightly less sensative but who knows) no changes. Nothing. I am delving straight into the TMI so I am sorry in advance.
My nipples are no darker (I have looked at them far more then a straight woman should). And worse, I am having the opposite issue of constipation. Actually this is embaressing to say (which is odd Im a nurse and so do not often get embaressed) but I actually had an episode of diarrhea. I got a cramp and before I could make it to the bathroom......well lets just say I had to do a quick load of laundry. Again I am SOOO sorry if this is TMI but all of this seems SO opposite the signs of pregnancy that I already feel like I have lost hope. Hope and sanity. And a stitch of dignity considering I am 25 and might have to consider wearing a diaper. I hate to think what would have happened if I was not home.....
I just feel this sense of impending doom. Like I am going to go to this appointment and it will be ectopic. Or it will have stopped growing and we will hear the silence of failure instead of a heartbeat like we want. I am trying to stay positive but I feel like I should be feeling something other then this awful embaressment and depression. I just start crying randomly and I feel like I cannot talk to anyone because no one but my DH knows about our possible good news.
So thanks in advance for listening to my rambling. I am so sorry if I grossed you guys out to much I am just at a loss.