It's been two months since I found out that my husband cheated with our neighbor and this past weekend he admitted to a lot more than he initially told me. He first told me it only happened one time but that they had been texting ever since (for a year). I told him from the beginning that in order to rebuild the trust he needed to be totally honest with what went on, so I could move on. I've felt ever since that he wasn't telling me all of it because it just didn't add up. I asked him on several occasions to just own up to the fact that it was more than once but he swore it wasn't. He has been absolutely incredible since it all came out, being the man that I've always known he could be. He has tried so hard and has been fighting to keep our family together. Then this past weekend, on a camping trip, I broke down after a really bad day and the following morning asked him again what really happened. He admitted that it happened a few times not just the once.
I'm now faced with everything all over again. I love him so much and I think it could be really great if we could get through it, but I'm not sure I can. I feel so totally broken and it feels like I'm back at square one. It's so easy for him to lie to me so how do I trust ever again? I've never felt so lost and so small. There are so many conflicting emotions between what I think I should do and how I feel. Where do I go from here?