I have been left behind in so many ttc groups that I stopped coming here. My closest friends when I start on TTC boards MANY MANY years ago....all had their babies long ago. My one friends who was unsucessul like me.....well she just got her baby after years and years of trying (she finally adopted). Meanwhile I accepted my inability to conceive. Each time I believe I have accepted it.....someone or something reminds me that my heart is still deeply saddened by all the years of ttc and failure. The pills, creams, shots, ultrasounds, surgery, tests, insem......the negative tests.....and the emptiness still remains. I can't get it out of my head. This week has been esp hard. Everyone talks about their kids....or are expecting. There is NOBODY I can talk to about this. So here I am....back to the boards.