After our 2 miscarriage in October (not back to back had dd in between), we were very happy to find out we were pregnant again before Christmas. The same day my cousin also found out she was pregnant. I was excited to have someone to take this journey with. As those of you that have mc know no one understands that loss like you do unless they have been through it! Which I would wish on no one! My cousin had spent the last week every other day sending me pictures of her darker hpt. Christmas day I asked her to stop sending them. I am very happy for her and her DH and obviously her pregnancy is thriving but the messages were worrying me because mine were not getting darker. Less then an hour later I started bleeding which I knew I was mcing. When I texted her that I was bleeding she said your pregnant it's probably just implantation bleeding. Don't worry about it. But I knew what I was feeling. We got confirmation today that I indeed mced. I love my cousin but this is going to be so hard watching her get bigger while I stay the same. Our due dates would have just been days apart. How do I move on and be happy for her? I am happy for her but right now my heart is breaking. I want to be there for her like I said I would but I'm not sure I can now. I am so lost.