I have been with my husband for over 15 years...have 2 kids...I have been effected by the economy therefore I am not bringing any income and was the bread winner...we downsized a year ago and got through it! Here is the problem...husband is an alcoholic...I am about to lose my mind!! Has been for 11 years now....long story short...I have a plan...I am working on some deals and if they close I can support me and the kids...if not I move out when school is over because I can not keep living like this! I will have to move in with my sister and a different town and disrupt the kids lives but if there are no other options than that is where I am at....what bothers the HELL out of me is I am 40 he is a year older....everyone we ever know and run into tells him how pretty I am and he has a hot wife blah blah blah...does he not reallize or worry that perhaps I will meet someone else??? I have been sleeping on the sofa now for almost 8 years..clearly I am not sleeping in the bed with him that would be gross!!! Yes we have had our knock down drag outs and I now know I do not have the magic words to make him stop....I do know I should not hate him but hate the disease but God help me I hate him!!! I hate all that his drinking has done.....I guess my question would be would it be wrong of me to say done...over it ...not looking back...divorce....I just find myself thinking...dreaming of what it would be like to be with someone for some attention!!!