Hi everybody. I just stumbled on this site and feel like I have nobody to talk to that would understand. So I thought I would write me thoughts on here. My husband confessed to cheating on me about 6 months ago. He started working with a girl he had known for a few years-casually. We were not communicating very much and I noticed that they were texting back and forth- much of it he was hiding. I confronted him and said that I thought he was being too friendly. He defended the friendship. A few days after this he went out of town on a training trip and slept with her there. He came back and confessed it to me as soon as he came back. But he also came back to tell me he thought he had feelings for her and didn't think we could ever get past his cheating. I was distraught and begged him to think of his family and me. He told me he needed time to think. He then went and talked to her to see how she felt! When I found this out I kicked him out. He left the house for about a week and in this week he continued to see her. He would take her out to eat , hang out with her and continued a sexual relationship. After a week of being out of the house he came back and broke down. He said he didn't know what he was doing. That night he broke it off and we have been going to counseling and we are much more open and honest about our feelings. I know that he is regretful and that he thinks he made a huge mistake. He shows me everyday that he loves me and wants to be with me. He does not communicate with her and he says that he knows now that the feelings he thought he had were all bread out of sleeping with her. He never thought he would ever cheat in me and when he did he thought it had to mean something. This is what lead to all of his decisions that followed while out of the house. I know he is sorry and that this was out of character for him. But I still feel so Angry. Knowing that they shared that intimate time together and that he was interested in someone else other than me. Does this get better? I think about it all the time and it hurts me so much. I just can't believe he bacame that horrible selfish person. He wants to show me he can be the man he married and he is doing everything but a part of me still hates him. Is this normal? I want to grow old with him. He has always been a good man. Husband and father. I am just in shock and still don't understand....Thank you for listening and any advise.