So my fiancee and i have been through our fair share of ups and downs! During my pregnancy he would go out with his friends behind my back, text other women and hd just went through a period of not knowing what he wanted in life. He even quit his job, many things; long story. Well i havent been able to get over all the lies, constant separations and cheating. I had the feeling for a very long time since he would always have his phone locked and seemed nervous whenever he was on his email or facebook account.. he always chaged the subject whenever i would ask him for his password. One day i checked his phone and found messages from 2 different women. Ever since then i feel like my anger keeps getting worse and worse. We've tried making it work many times but it always seem to go back to the constant arguing and i exppress it in a very hateful way. I mean constant! Like 24/7! I can't seem to control it! We want to go to therapy but we cannot afford it! My anger and pain seem to be getting bigger instead of smaller! & with every argument things seem to get worse and worse. We love each other but it seems imppossible to try to make it work! We could be having a great day when all of a sudden my brain starts thinking about the past and why would he hurt me if he loved me and so on just sooo much for me to handle that i eventually let it out. I'm always cranky and my fiancees feels like he's walking on eggshells all the time! Anything sets me off! I really neeadvice from all the hurt people out there! Please! ! Everything starts my imagination rolling with the anger pain guilt frustration! We have a 9 month baby and its just very hard! Were struggling both financially and emocionally! Please help from anyone out thereon how to deal and move on!