After being together for over a year, I found out my BF was cheating on me. Lie upon lie upon lie. I was devastated. After his affair ended, he "realized" he loved me. I took him back. Made plans for our future, moving in together, planning our life's journey, marriage. He swore he was not communicating with that woman. I knew better. First he would lie about it. I knew he was still communicating. He kept saying he wouldn't do it anymore, and they were harmless e-mails anyway. "She means nothing". Nothing turned into sending her cards telling her she was in his thoughts which turned into "harmless" rides on his motorcycle behind my back. When I found out, I was hurt and angry. Then what happened? He began seeing her and having sex because he was lonely because we were in a "disagreement". . Now he is remorseful again. Talked me into going to couple's counseling with him (and I see him strugglling with the truth with the counselor.) Swears it will never happen again. Wants to move on forget the past and rebuild our lives-says he will spend the rest of his life trying to re-build my trust in him. I don't trust him. I have no reason to trust him. I hate that I love this man so much but am in such a sad place. I don't know what to do. This pattern of betrayal and apology I feel he can never break. Once a cheater, always a cheater. Especially after this 2nd round with the same woman. There is so much more to this situation than I feel I should waste time talking about. Can a cheater ever change? Should his track record speak for itself? I feel so betrayed and of so little worth. And I know better.