So I wake up today on Easter Sunday . We are having people over for a gathering and dinner and I go downstairs and I hear a man's voice. Its sis's new guy and they are laughing and talking and all. He is coming back later for dinner.. I cant help but feel jealous but not sure if that is what I am feeling. I mean I want the best for sis but I cant help feeling like this.

So here I am again alone with no one. Later on there will be all couples and me.. I started crying and most likely hope and pray I get through the day as I watch all the couples living their lives. I so wish I could leave or maybe I should..

well I guess its a vent. You guys dont have to say anything to make me feel better cause it wont help.

I am thinking about going and living somewhere in Bermuda where no one knows me and becoming a Bohemian because this life just sucks.. Who wants to join me??