My name is Haley. I have been with my boyfriend Liam for about two and a half years now. We are currently separated (well on a break since we are not married). I gave him a break because Liam said he needed time for school, work, friends and everything else going on in his life. He told me that he just didn't feel like it was fair to me to not separate for a few months just because he didn't feel like he could dedicate time to me that he should. I told Liam I was cool with him focusing on other things and that separating wasn't necessary. Anyways because he told me he would feel bad otherwise, I decided to just give in and be separated (on a break). The terms of the whole separation is that we would still be in a relationship, it would just be on pause until he got through this really busy last semester before he finally went to grad. school. Basically this means being loyal and just not moving on. I have really missed Liam, even though we have checked in and seen how each other has been doing. It's not the same because we don't see each other or talk much at all, maybe just once a week or once every other week. The separation has been going on for about two almost three months. Recently, I have been hanging out with my friend, Van. Van and I have become really good friends recently. I have known Van for a long time and he is about 3 years older than me. I used to have a crush on him years ago. Anyways we have been hanging out lately and the other day we were teasing each other and he ended up tickling me. We ended up on the couch, where he was tickling and when we both caught our breath from laughing we were literally in the position to almost kiss. Our faces were super close and we stayed there for a minute just staring at each other and then he leaned in and kissed me. Ugh I don't know what to do because I am supposed to still be with Liam, even though Liam and I are separated (on a break) and he doesn't seem to have anytime for me. Liam still hangs out with his friends and calls and texts his friends but he has no time for me. I just don't know what to do because I liked the kiss between Van and I. Van apologized for kissing me since I am still sort of in a relationship. Van told me he likes me and that he would be interested in dating if I wasn't with Liam but that he wants me happy. I don't know what to do ugh.