Myself and my partner bought a little 3 year old chihuaha a few months ago and have just suffered a tragic loss. His name was Morris and he was the most beautiful little boy I have ever seen. Being in a long term lesbian relationship, Morris really did complete our little family and really was like our baby. He had been to stay at my partners mums house, as we were in the process of moving in to a larger home with a garden, especially for him. Yesterday afternoon my partners mum called me with the news. Our little boy had been playing in the garden and tried to get out under the fence, got stuck and strangled himself to death. I collapsed to the floor as soon as she told me, and my heart broke even further as i had to tell my partner. All i can think is what if we had just brought him home and not left him there, what if we had just taken his collar off, why couldnt someone have found him sooner. Ive been back and forth over and over the 'what ifs' and blaming myself constantly. My partner feels exactly the same way but seems to be coping even worse. She saw him as a replacement for a child which we cannot have. We move into our new house on Monday which was meant for him, and im so scared that its not going to feel like a home without him. Weve saved for so long to build our lives together, after 2 years in shared housing this was meant to be our fresh start, and it couldnt have been worse timing. More than anything i just wanted to tell my story, and welcome any advice or comforting words which may help the grieving process along. We have been offered a new dog for whenever we are ready, but im scared things won't be the same and i wont be able to love the next one in the same way. Morris was an ex show dog, he was stunning, cheeky and had more love to give than i ever thought possible, i would give anything to have him back in my arms and licking my face. I feel weak, exhausted, and lost. Someone please help!