Not sure if this is the right spot to post this but I need to talk and you guys have always helped me. My baby came into my life july 2002. My blood hound was like my baby. She an i went through alot together. I loved her more than anything. I almost lost her in 2010 after she got lost at the lake in 100u degree heat that summer an contracted rocky mountain spotted fever an lost a toe due to a snake bite. Anywho, several thousand dollars later she recovered but was never quit the same spunky girl. Still she was here with me. I married that same year. The new hubby felt dogs were dogs. My baby had to start staying outsidein rain, sleet or snow. My baby hated thunderstorms but hubby made her stay outside anyway. Well, long story short. My baby developed a couple tumors. We had gone through that before, had them removed an all was good. But this time it was different. I chose not to treat the cancerous tumor. My girl had already been through so much in her life. He was a clumsy girl she was always getting into something she swallowed a remotegood had to have an endoscopy she had multiple lacerations from runningu around in the woods sniffing in howling. She had a couple snake bites, chronic ear infections then the other year she got so sick with rocky mountain spotted fever. So when I learned of the cancer I decided to let my girl be. I kept her at home gave her her favorite food let her run and play in the woods tried to make her last days happy. she lasted almost another year. But last friday she's not eating. We bought her some of her favorite a ham bone, litttle debbie oatmeal cream pies nothing. All she did was throw up. So monday i took her to her vet. She xrayed her belly the tumor was encompassing the whole stomach it was pressing on all her organs she was miserable. I had to make the decision to put her down. I took her back home. Layed with her in bed. We talked. I loved on her an the next day i took her an put her down. I am sooooo heart broken. I cant seem to shake it. I feel like i have a huge hole in my heart. I need to get over this but i dont know how. I am having her cremated. So maybe once i get her back home i will feel better. Thanks for listening.