As most of you know, I'm new to this. I lost my son, Cash Ryan, June 5th @ 38 weeks d/t a true knot in the cord. Now I feel guilty doing anything. We took my stepdaughter (she is 4 & with us most of the time) to the aquarium yesterday & she loved it....the whole time I kept feeling bad because my son. I know I'll never have any of these experiences with Cash & he will never experience anything here with us. Anyone else have this issues? Words of wisdom? I'll take any thoughts at this point. Kind of like why should I have any normalcy in my life again. When I do go do a few normal things I then come back home or go to the cemetery & sob forever. It's not fair to cut my family out & no longer enjoy activities with them, but I feel so sad/guilty that Cash is not with us.