First off im really upset and im so sorry with my mispellings and peniship.. Ok here it goes in march of this year i meet a guy on a dating site..i added him on messenger off and on we would talk..
First week in may i got offline message on my messenger telling me to stay away from him..He my man leave him alone..you dont sleep here..this is first i knew he had girlfriend..This first time i knew his first and last name she gave it..i wasnt sure what to think i asked him do you have a girlfriend he said no do you have girlfriend i asked him again he said no..well then i said this is id she gave me to get hold of her at..he confessed about having one and is going break up with her that night..i wasnt really sure if i should trust him or not..
but week later it was mothers he wanted to come to my area I said no my sister is here.. so he didnt come down..he told me how this gal named jen would see god and had alot email accounts and i was kinda afraid because i didnt know what kind person she was really..he got me point i feared for his kids safety and his kids saftey..with what he was saying about her..and is going be friends with her for the kids sake ..his kids and her kids get along great..and they need him in their life.
he changed email accounts saying the other one got hacked into ..and asked if i was mad at him i said no those things happen but i tried emailing on that one it was never email account..meaning he had 2 diffrent profiles but i thought ok ..
I thought well maybe im being silly when it comes to this we would just talk and get to know one another ..we would talk on messenger every night ..he gave me his number but i never felt comfortable giving, mine untill i meet him in person..end of may he told people on the chat place lea the one for me and she the one that says when we meet she in charge . he would show me on webcam..his face and stuff..i would say hi to his kids if i saw them behind him..his kids are 20 16 12 14
i started getting feelings for him i could see he and i togther a long time..well their was a big rodeo up in his area 3 hours from my place..I didnt feel comfortable going by myself ..and my friends all had plans that weekned..i wanted to meet him in my own area..where everybody knew me..
well first week in july he said he wasnt going be on as much with putting fence in 100 degree weather..second week i went into the chat place where he and i meet and he was calling women hot and he was looking for a farm girl..and he came on messenger said i didnt see you on..he wasnt looking for anybody but one of my friends told me to get on their and saw what he was doing and i had the same id that he and i meet on.. i blocked him the next day..
i emailed jen and told her recently im so sorry i broke them two up..i had no idea he had gf untill you sent me that offline message..she said i wasnt at my fault..and asked what was going on..i said he gave up on me..she told me i was the blame saying i hurt his kids and made them upset for not going to that rodeo,i hurt him,he put you meaning me first over the kids..i made his daughter cry..his daughter is in wheel chair and in diapers..saying you only have yourself to blame for not meeting him..that him and her are back togther..you could meet him in may but you choose not too..you could of trusted him second week in may but you didnt.. you have yourself only to blame..not him..
i felt so terriable..I told her im new to this online dating stuff world.. i wanted be able to feel like i could trust him..she said you could of..
was i out ofline did i hurt everybody ?was i wrong waiting so long that i did and was i wrong not wanting to trust him right off the bat.. help me please i need closure..