I'm just having a really tough day anxiety wise. I heard baby on the doppler this morning, I can feel him or her moving sometimes...but I just can't shake the feeling that something is wrong. I know it's totaly PAL brain and not logical but I can't get past it today. I tried texting and calling a few friends but one was at work (obviously an acceptable excuse, lol) and the others basically have too much of their own things goes on right now and aren't really up for giving support. DH is at work and can't really talk until later. He's having a bad day at work too so I don't want to burdon him. I just feel really really alone right now.
I just wish I could turn off my brain for a while. At least if I was working tonight I'd be able to distract myself but it's my night off so I'll just be lieing in bed overthinking everything. I'm having a lot of pain this pregnacy and my OB says it's normal to have more with later pregnancies because the muscles/ligaments aren't as strong. On top of all the PAL brain we have a lot of real stress and issues going on. I just really needed someone today and am feeling a little abandoned. I just need it to be Tuesday so I can see my baby at my ultrasound. Thank you all for being here to vent to on a tough day.