But in a good way.
As some of you remember things haven't been exactly rosy over here. I've been dealing with a lot of stressors lately and it has really impacted my life (health wise and otherwise). My mom living with me really put strain on BF and I, and even though she is out now, we are still working on rebuilding/ refocusing. At work, we hired a new director that I reported into, and she was a complete and total nightmare to work with (but nice as a person). She made my life and the life of my team miserable (at one point I actually thought my entire team was going to quit - in one week I had every single one of them in my office crying). I started documenting things and finally went to my VP. She was fantastic and she said she knew something was up. It turns out we were not the only ones with issues and two weeks ago she was let go. I hate to be happy that someone was fired, but the tone of the team changed immediately, and even though we are insanely busy, we are handling it well.
On top of all of this, my grandma is sick and at the palliative stage I am preparing myself for the worst as it will happen any day now (this has been ongoing for over a month). I am emotionally drained.
But today I woke up and pulled myself together and went to the gym. Its a small step, but my reaction when I get stressed is to eat and cocoon. This may have worked in my twenties, but at 30, I'm not fitting in my pants! I'm also constantly tired and feeling bad. So I made a decision today to get up at 5, work out, take the dogs for a run, make a healthy breakfast, pack a healthy lunch, put in a load of laundry AND make it to the office by 8:30. It feels so GOOD!
I am on fire today and I just have to keep burning!