I'm back, again. Tried ending so many times it's embarrassing. Last time I ask him to stay away, that lasted 3 weeks. I started chatting with him for a couple weeks, but soon as he wanted to meet up again I went silent. No ending email...nothing but silence. That was one week ago today. I can do without the physical, my problem is the emotional part. The reason I keep going back is because I want to know it was more and each time I'm always disappointed. I know what it is for him. I know when he tells me he loves and misses me they're probably not true. Why can't I just let this go and move on? Why do I keep looking for that little shred of evidence that maybe, just maybe I meant more? I just feel so tired and beat up over this anymore.