For some reason last night was a really difficult night.
I'm past an anniversary date by a few days but I suppose that doesnt really matter if my brain has decided to continue on with intrusive thoughts.
I suppose it doesn't help that I keep things that are bothering me to myself most of the time too.
I guess the more time that passes from what happened, the less I feel I can talk about it. I know that's more of a self-imposed rule than anything anyone has told me. Ironic isn't it. I'm CL of a board claiming to be "a safe place to share" and I find it hard to talk myself.
Perhaps the difficulty in expression comes from the fact I kept things to myself for a very long time.
Now when it might be a good idea to talk, I can't seem to do anything but cry and when I am in a place to say something, the words don't seem to come.
I guess the point of all this is to ask for some prayers to help me get through whatever all this is that seems to be going on in my head right now.
All this being said, I tend to be more effective supporting someone else than I am myself so if someone is reading this and feels they can't share too, please know that sometimes it is even more help to me to be able to respond to someone else since often times what I end up saying to someone else ends up being what I need to hear for me too.
If you want to type something about yourself but don't feel you can, I can sympathize and I hope things are going to be ok for you.
Guess I've said all there is to say for now.
If you've read this - thank you.