Good morning ladies!
Frustrated, time to vent! I am totally feeling like an outsider here. Not because of you wonderful ladies but because my lady junk is apparently so messed up that I fit nowhere within this board. I am now on CD23, and have not stopped bleeding the entire time. Some days are just spots, most days are light (not even heavy or medium) but there has not been one day when I haven't seen a bit of pink on the tissue. Our insurance issues are still not resolved, we're trying but nothing is successful as of yet, hopefully that will change soon and I can get some answers. All of my symptoms point mostly towards a hormonal imbalance, most likely associated with peri-menopause. Man, talk about coming in quickly... It's very frustrating first it takes me 48-50 days to have a period (back in the old days before April of this year they were 27-32 days long) then when they come they are either epic or they just won't go the F away (sorry for the psuedo bad language ). So in any event, I we are still not preventing but TBH it's kind of hard to try around all of this weird stop and start (that's how I bleed, start the day sometimes and nothing and by day's end a light flow). Anyway, it probably doesn't matter because it's pretty likely that this is NOT a fertile cycle, yeah, one never knows so I keep a tiny glimmer of hope but ugh.
So anyway that's my stupid update. I just wish to someday again be able to join my lovely ladies in the 2WW again. So afraid it won't happen If it doesn't that would be so unfair. At this point, I'd just be happy to O, though the goal is baby, O and no blood until it's time ---- normal for crying out loud would be fan-freaking-tastic. Yeah, I'm a little pissed off about the whole thing, but there is nothing I can do about it but hope that this is part of God's plan. I'm hoping all this weird cycle stuff is God's mysterious way of helping me get closer to holding the baby of my dreams in my arms and holding it as my own for as long as he/she wants to be held. Sigh...
Hugs and dust ladies!