So close. To being a super tweener on august 27th. I don't want to get into the details of why or what i said but i emailed. He didn't wb of course. I wasn't exactly fishing but i guess it counts as contact. I hate to think about restarting a clock and reaching a certain date in order to say i am past him and over him. Because i feel that i am just as much as before i emailed. It wasn't even about him or wanting him. I wanted a certain something from him as a favor. rationally i knew he wouldn't do it but in that moment.i was in such a state due to circumstances that i wrote to him without thinking even almost like i was out of body or on autopilot. It was weird. But that is what happened. And i think i don't get a six month medal.