Long story short 7years and a 2year old, both with a pill habit. I got help moved out told him we cant be together until he changes with me I cant be sober and be with him. Never dealt with any feelings always thought we would be together.
Well, he starts seeing the girl that he once cheated with and who has for 7 years tried always to come in the middle of our relationship( i think this is what hurts the most)
i realized he was with her she spends everynight with him only been 2 months.( that theyve been together)
He trys to play me week by week one week he doesnt care the next he wants to be with me and that is what hurts me more. Im having a terrible time detaching myself. im hurt and im angry and im super bitter
and i just cant shake it off. i think part of the problem is that i feel like i could still be with him at one point. and another is i allow him to do this to me.
then on the other hand we have a child that he has not once asked to see since we split ( he was a good dad) only if i ask him to watch her does he see her and then on top of that i cant stand that fact that girl is there so i dont want my daughter near her ( which i know at some point when there is a custody agreement i cant change who he is going to have her be around)
the whole thing is just eating me up inside im so jealous and hurt becuase i feel like he wasnt supposed to run off he was supposed to fight for his family it do what it took to be with us and he didnt take that road. i cant stop thinking about it these are the thoughts that consume my mind night and day
i try to get out but i have no one to go out with so i just work and come home and spend time with my daught ( i think thats half the battle)