Last night, my mother-in-law passed away. She had been visiting my brother-in-law's family and seeing a doctor in NY about a lung condition she had. When she left to visit last month, she was (mostly) fine. But, while there, complications arose that wore her body down until she went home yesterday. I have not truly processed the fact that she is gone and I don't really want to. I don't want to see her at the funeral or viewing. I want to pretend she is still away. I know I will have to see her, because I am going to be with my husband to support him, but I really, really do not want to. I want to stay in this denial bubble that is keeping me from breaking down completely.