Today marked 21 days of NC. Three full weeks. Today I sat in the cafe with a friend for lunch - something I never do as I always eat at my desk or go out . I glance up sensing someone near and there he was at the vending machine. We made eye contact and I waved as I would have with anyone else. Ok no harm no foul no words exchanged just my gesture. Made me sad and brought up feelings but I carried on with my day. This evening I get a text asking if i still had his painting supplies as he needs it for, what else, painting. Oh crap I do. Now my mind is reeling. Why is he painting? Is he selling? Moving? But I didn't ask just a simple yes to his favor that I bring it to work. I really don't need to know. He is S and moving on. Good for him but good lord the pain. It really is true. No contact = no new hurts. So now I need to give him his stuff and reset my counter at zero. As I sit here I keep Clarity's post in my mind as I do have a great man at home. He's on the couch right now watching Moneyball as I sit here with a pit in my stomach. Heck he even loaded up xAPs crap in my truck (H has no clue of A). He really is great and I should thank my lucky stars that I am so blessed. He is considered a "keeper" by most. I am doing better but tonight not so much. Wish me luck tomorrow. xAP is moving on though and I care enough about him to not hinder that forward progress for him. Hopefully a simple exchange of items and we will be on our way with our own RLs.