These past two weeks have been really difficult....
I work for a medium sized organization that is public/private mix and provides a large number of programs. The one that I love is a tiny program of four plus secretary. My work was awesome for eleven years until....
Some of you may remember that several months ago my job changed significantly at work. I was placed half time in another division and away from the work I thrive and love (it is autonomous, and intellectually and emotionally super gratifying). At that time I was thinking well at least I'll still be able to do it half-time.
The other half is super busy but not challenging. There were some people that resented me there as they get paid 20-25k less than I do but I did have one of my best friends there so that was OK.
Well this past friday my boss called me into her office. She told me the original job i had will no longer exist in one month as they will be shutting that tiny program down. I was devastated. Two of my colleagues are laid off, the other one will continue in a reduced capacity to do that job only for internal clients and our secretary is being transferred.
My fate....I am being moved once again to another small division and made a co-ordinator....I am very unhappy this but this will give me a 5% raise.....this will be four days a week...the other day will be spent helping my other colleague in the job I had been doing in the original program. I will now report to three bosses and my time will be so highly scheduled that I lose most of my autonomy.
I was one of the few people that loved my work and now I know like most people I will dread going in. I know I have no choice and will accept this fate but I feel very sad and despondent about it. There is no place in these times that I will make the salary that I make with the amazing pension and benefits. Additionally they have given me an extra week vacation so that brings me to five and a half weeks which i know is excellent.
I know I am supposed to suck it up but I can't help feeling really sad about it....
Last week my little car needed another repair and I was getting fed up. My debt level is high and I thought I cant afford a new car. I told one of my home organzation clients about my situation and she said....my brother is a car dealer let me put you in touch with him.
To make a long story short.....I traded in my little car for 4k and and paid him 5k or so (blasted credit i know) and we worked out that I would work for him in terms of decorating a huge new house he is building as well as organizing the work as well as doing some work for two of his partners (we agreed on 285 billable hours at $35/h). He sold me the car at cost and I now have a top of the line 2012 nissan altima.
Im glad that I worked that out but also a bit sad that my debt level has creeped up again. I have decided to absorb it in my consumer debt ticker instead of starting a new one.
Sorry for the long post....